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2月27日 Back in the Saddle AgainAfter an over three month hiatus , yesterday afternoon my daughter and I went lunching together at our fave nearby local grill .
This was indeed the first time since the accident in November we rode together .We drove through the infamous intersection together with a tad more care and serious prayers that things turned out as they did and not worse .
We were both nervous, but I believe that as her Mom, I needed to put my trust in her hands once again.She was so rattled that day that since she had started driving less and less.
Preferring her boyfriend or Eddie to do the honors.I knew it was important for myself to get in her new car with her in the driver's seat again for my own healing as well.We had after all covered several thousand miles together over the past few years without incident.It just so happened that her first accident unluckily resulted in a serious injury for her Mom.
I know that seeing me cut out of the car with the jaws of life, blood in the car and the whole ambulance emergency room scenario will remain with her for a very long time.
I heard her in my semi-conscious state in a serious panic over my condition as they pulled me out of the car.
The stuff nightmares are made of , and I felt so bad for her even in my injured state , but was very relieved that she didn't seem to have any major injuries from what I could tell by listening.
At my first outpatient physical appointment this past Wednesday morning I was told that one leg is temporarily shorter than the other due to a slight twisting of my pelvis. * Oh Yay*
It's the muscles that need to be kinked out and strenghthened , so I have some work ahead of me over the next few months.
In a lot of ways a sense of normalcy is returning to my everyday life.Those dark days of narcotic pain relief and the indescribable pain of movement a part of my personal history fading away bit by bit .
I'm tired more easily and by tailbone and right leg socket aches here and there , but I'm feeling like the saddle is not far from fitting the horse again.
 Steff and her new safe ride w/ boyfriend Dave. Eddie found this sweet ride for her.2月21日 Hellau , Hellau ! Article on German Karneval from The LocalGermany's news in English.
My German mother always gets real festive this time of year , with Karneval approaching. I never caught this bug , this part of my German heritage just didn't translate to me at all. I use to watch her get bubbly and carried away in fascination whenever we'd live in Germany during that time of year.
Here's an article about the origins of Karneval .
In the Stuttgart area where we lived in the late 80's ,there was this one traditonal day when a business man's secretary could cut his tie in half....I remember Tom being worried about that !
The origins of Karneval are so old that spending the final weeks of winter off your face and horny* 1 has long since become enmeshed in our very DNA. Some men and women tried to limit this part of human nature to a short period each year and today we call these people Catholics. But back in the day, it was Romans, Egyptians, Celts and, yes, the German tribes that indulged in pagan orgies *2 to mark the passing of the cold season.
But general drunkenness and sexual abandon aside, very few actual pagan traditions have survived the millennia of Christianisation, except one – Karneval has always been the season of satire. The Romans used to play slave and master role-reversal games, an unnerving tradition that survived as long as middle-class people had servants. The idea was that for one day at least, a servant could make sarcastic remarks and escape the rod. This temporary suspension of censorship led to the adoption and development of characters who mocked their social superiors, like the Jecke or the Hans Wurst. In the Middle Ages there was even a “Pseudo-Pope,” who would parody Church rituals. In fact, medieval Germany developed a tradition of downright blasphemy at Karneval, with people dressing up as animals and performing things like the Eselsmesse, or Mass of Asses – as in jackasses. This involved grown men and women answering the blessings of the Mass in animal noises. Seeing as the ass was a phallic fertility symbol*3 in those deranged Dark Ages, this was also a very rude misappropriation of the recurring donkey image in Jesus’ life-story. The German Reformation, of course, spoiled all the fun by doing away with the pre-Easter fast altogether, which eliminated the whole point of Karneval and its many traditions. That is until the fateful year of 1823, when a new, organised Karneval club was founded, there was no longer a Protestant respite from ritualised toilet humour. In the 1820’s, when Karneval was reborn for the modern age in post-Napoleonic Germany, the people used the event to enjoy the always-wholesome pastime of making fun of French people*4, who they despised and feared, and against whom they bore a few grudges. Accordingly, Karneval satire is kept alive mainly by displaying giant caricatures of universally despised people during the festival’s several parades. In recent years, the role of a militaristic and menacing superior power has often played by the United States and former President George Bush has made many Karneval appearances in papier-mâché – including at least once holding a crucifix-shaped flame-thrower emblazoned with the phrase “God Bless America.” *5 This year, Turkish-German TV comedians picked up the baton of ridicule and lured the national media into thinking they had set up a Karneval club based on Muslim codes. Now it seems it’s the Germans’ turn to take a joke from society’s underdogs.
Well alrighty then.
2月16日 Forgot All About This Tune...but it happened to me in late 07.
So more power to this 15- 20 year old song( wow has it been That long??!) 2月15日 Celine Dion - A New Day Has Come-My Dedication To Eddie on Valentines
2月10日 Recovery Full Speed AheadCross your fingers for me pretty please , here's hoping this morning is hopefully the last time I have to see the inside of the orthopedic clinic in the forseeable future.
I am improving daily , my percoset intake is down to one a day instead of five back in December , or even right after the accident I was on a morphine drip.
I did not know such pain existed in this world.
Well ,let me modify that statement and say I knew of it but never expected to personally feel it.
I also thought after my husband's murder , that my life had it's quota of drama and loss.
Apparently not.No "get out of jail free " cards for me.
However, I thank my lucky stars everyday that I survived my life over the past seven years as my strength resurfaces.
This accident also showed me that I am in the right place at the right time in my life.
The people around me are rallying to my side : medical professionals, family , friends but most especially-- my partner.
As this scenario plays out it's final act, I am left to realize yet again that life holds no guarantees and that every moment counts .
Cliched as that sounds, it's a barefaced truth.
I let that message slide past me again for a bit, but it hit me full force square in the shoulder on November 16th , 2008.
2月2日 Level UPToday after several bed leg exercises, trying to get into the shower and a walk out the front door to a car, my physical therapist claimed
that I was ready for out patient pt at a local rehab gym . I also used our regular toilet several times.
Wowsers.
No more home visits for me.
I still have weakness and mobility issues, but I am hanging in there.
It's gonna get better.
Down to two percosets a day and ibuprofen in between .
Between my therapists ( from the rehab clinic plus Deborah my home health nurse) , and my intense desire to do more ,I'm making strides.
Sometimes not as fast , steady or wide as I want , but they are increasingly apparent .
Considering where I was just a few weeks or months back,I've come a long way baby.
I'm so ready to keep closer to normal.
Or whatever that is for me !
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with the medieval church ,phallic this, phallic that --sometimes an Ass is just an Ass yanno !
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